REJECTION

HE WAS SO DAMN CUTE...
I HAD BEEN PEEPIN CHULO OUT FOR ABOUT A YEAR NOW...
YEA IT SOUNDS KINDA STALKER-ISH,
BUT I WAS IN A RELATIONSHIP THAT WAS FIZZLING OUT
BUT BACK TO HIM,
HE WAS TOO DAMN CUTE,
AND MY FRIENDS AT THE TIME CONCURRED WITH THAT STATEMENT
WE'VE SEEN EACH OTHER SEVERAL TIMES
EVEN PLAYED THE EYE TAG GAME..
I HAVE TO ADMIT, THAT WAS A LIL CUTE, AND TURNED ME ON
BUT AFTER MONTHS OF REALLY WANTING TO GET TO KNOW HIM
I FINALLY GET THE NERVE AND SPEAK TO HIM
AT FIRST MY WORDS WERE SOFT AND FAST
BECAUSE I DIDNT EVEN KNOW WHAT TO SAY
OR HOW TO SAY IT
WITH OUT SOUNDING LIKE A COMPLETE DORK..LOL
ANYHOW, WE ESTABLISHED COMMUNICATION
AND EXCHANGED NUMBERS
I WAS SOOOOOOOOOOOOO EXCITED
SOMEONE WHO I ACTUALLY THOUGHT WAS COMPADABLE TO ME LIKED ME BACK
OR ATLEAST I THOUGHT SO
BEING OVERLY EXCITED I CALLED HIM WHEN I GOT HOME,
SINCE I SAW HIM IN THE CLUB
AND WE HAD A NICE CONVO FOR A 4 AM CHAT
WE HUNG UP AND HE SAID HE WOULD CALL ME
A FEW DAYS PASS
AND HE DOESNT CALL, SO I CALL HIM
AND HE DOESNT RETURN MY CALLS
NEEDLESS TO SAY
I AM A BIT HURT
ONLY BECAUSE I PUT MYSELF OUT THERE
WHICH IS SOMETHING I NEVER DO
AND THIS IS THE REASON

I HATE BEING REJECTED
I DONT KNOW HOW TO DEAL WIT THIS AT ALL.

WHAT DOES ONE DO ABOUT THIS?

HOE-LANTA

AFTER PRETTY MUCH LIVING UP NORTH IN JERSEY ALL MY LIFE I DECIDED TO VENTURE OFF TO THE DIRTY SOUTH.

OFF TO ATLANTA I WENT AND DAMN I TRIED TO GIVE THIS PLACE THE BENEFIT OF THE DOUBT, BUT IT IS SO DAMN TRUE!!! THIS PLACE IS A MESS!!!!

I HAVE ONLY BEEN LIVING IN THE "A" ABOUT A MONTH AND THE, LETS CALL THEM CHARACTERS, I HAVE MET WERE SO NOT WORTH MY TIME.

CASE #1, LETS CALL HIM BLINKY.....I MET BLINKY AS THE INFAMOUS ATL LIVE THE FIRST WEEKEND OUT...IT WAS LIKE HE HAD AN APB OUT ON THE NEW KID IN TOWN...ILL HAVE TO ADMIT HE DID GIVE OFF THAT PSUEDO THUGGISH APPEAL, AND BOY MANNERISMS AT FIRST. AND BEING THAT HE WAS SOME SORT OF "RICAN" I WAS LIKE DAMN I FEEL LIKE IM BACK IN NEW YORK....BUT WHAT I NOTICED MOST WAS HIS LIGHT EYES, HENCE THE NAME "BLINKY".....SO ME AND DUDE MET UP AND KICKED IT AND I DID ASK HIM IF THOSE WERE HIS EYES AND OF COURSE HE SAID YES. SO I TOOK IT FOR WHAT IT WAS, UNTIL I SAW HIS CONTACT LENS CASE WITH HIS "EYES" IN THEM ON DAY CHILLIN AT HIS CRIB...SO I THOUGHT TO MYSELF, DAMN DUDE IS LYIN ABOUT SIMPLE SHIT ALREADY, SO LET ME PREP MYSELF TO KICK THIS NIGGA TO THE CURB...NEEDLESS TO SAY THE LIES CONTINUED, ABOUT HIM AND HIS ROOMMATE/COUSIN, ABOUT HIM GETTIN A NEW CAR AND THE HOOPTY HE WAS DRIVING WAS A RENTAL...NOW DONT GET ME WRONG, AINT NOTHING WRONG WIT A HOOP-RIDE, BUT JUST BE HONEST ABOUT YA SHIT!! I JUST KNEW SHIT WASNT RIGHT WIT THIS SO BLINKY HAD TO GO!!! AND I COULDNT BE RID OF HIM FAST ENOUGH!!!!

CASE#2---LETS CALL HIM SHORTY-ROCK!!! OK SHORTY WAS A CUTIE, 4REAL..HE HAD THAT PSUEDO-BOY ACTING APPEAL TO HIM AS WELL, BUT IT WAS COOL 4 HIM..CUZ HE COULD HAVE BEEN WIFEY MATERIAL...BUT THIS LIL NIGGA THOUGHT HE WAS BOUT TO RUN SOME GAME ON ME!!! SAYING HOW DUDES CALLIN AT 3 AND 4 IN THA AM WERE HIS FRIENDS AND HES NOT KICKIN IT WIT NO ONE LIKE THAT AND SOME OTHER BULLSHIT!!!! I TOLD HIM TO TAKE HIS BAMA-ASS ON WIT THAT BULLSHIT, IM FROM UP-TOP TRY AND RUN THAT GAME ON THESE COUNTRY NIGGAS WHO DONT KNOW ANYBETTA!! SO HE HAD TO GO...THEN COME TO FIND OUT LATER FROM OTHER PEEPS WHO KNEW HIM THAT HE IS A SLUT..SO YEA IM GLAD I CUT HIM WHEN I DID.

CASE#3---HIS NAME IS GOING TO BE "ALMOST GOT ME", CUZ THAT NIGGA ALMOST HAD ME SLIPPIN FOR A MINUTE...BUT GAME RECOGNIZE GAME NIGGA...AND THATS ALL IMA SAY ABOUT U..BUT U KNOW WHATS UP...

SO THE MORAL OF THE STORY IS NIGGAS AINT SHIT AND WILL NEVER BE SHIT, ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU WANT THEM TO BE SOMETHING THEY ARE INCAPABLE OF BEING!

THEM NIGGAS ARE A MESS ESPECIALLY IN HOE-LANTA

TELL ME WHAT YA THINK?

GRADE ME----choose a letter

F~ You're ugly and you suck at life. Literally.
D~ You're an ass. Go jump off a cliff.
C- ~ You're just someone I don't want to talk to, okay?
C ~ You're okay looking, I guess, but definetly not the best.
C+ ~ You're, meh, the "average joe". Kind of boring yes?
B- ~ Hey you're kind of cool. You're kind of cute too.
B ~ You're cute. And you're a pretty interesting person.
B+ ~ Pretty damn attractive and cool too.
A- ~ You're extremely attractive, and you're awesome. Go you.
A ~ REALLY hot, I want you here now. Let's get it on.
A+ ~ GORGEOUS... FUCK ME NOW!!


YOU'RE afraid of what people think of YOU if you don't post this!!!!! Reply to me the grade you think I deserve. Re-post this and see what people grade you.

IMA STAY THAT BITCH

I WOULD NEVER CONSIDER MYSELF A HOE. BUT IN THIS LIFESTYLE TO BE ATTRACTIVE , RECIEVING LOTS OF ATTENTION AND TO BE SEXUALLY ACTIVE EQUALS A MESS. AND WHY THE HELL IS THAT?? IT'S NOT MY FAULT I GET ATTENTION!!!! NOR IS IT MY FAULT THAT PEOPLE MAKE UP SHIT!

IN MY OTHER LIFE AS A PSUEDO STRAIGHT MAN I WOULD BE ADORNED WITH MEDALS OF HONOR AND TRIUMPH TO HAVE SLAYED VARIOUS GIRLS. EVEN FOR THE STORIES THAT GET MADE UP, PEOPLE WOULD LOVE ME. BUT IN THIS GAY WORLD IT IS LOOKED DOWN UPON. TRUTH IS....FAGGOTS ARE SO TIRED.

BUT WHAT I CANT GET IS HOW PEOPLE CALL THEMSELVES YOUR FRIENDS AND ARE QUICK TO POINT OUT THAT YOU ARE DOING WRONG, WHEN THEY ARE DOING THE SAME EXACT ACTIVITIES IF NOT WORSE.

I HAD A FRIEND RECENTLY WHO APPARENTLY CALLS ME ALL SORTS OF WHORES AND SLUTS BEHIND MY BACK...

NOW I WAS FLABBERGASTED BECAUSE I WAS LIKE "WOW, I HAVEN'T BEEN FUCKIN WIT NO ONE LIKE THAT, BUT YET HE CALLS ME A HOE AND I KNOW FOR A FACT THAT HE IS OUT TEARING THE SCENE UP!"

PEOPLE SAY THAT JEALOUSY CAN CREATE ALL SORTS OF MONSTERS..AM I TO THINK THAT A GOOD FRIEND OF MINE FOR MANY YEARS HAS SUCCOMB TO THIS JEALOUSY DEMON? IT'S SAD SAD DAY TO REALIZE THAT.

BUT I FEEL THAT IT HAS TO BE DEEPER THAN JUST JEALOUSY FOR PEOPLE TO MAKE UP SHIT AND TRY TO TEAR SOMEONE DOWN! ESPECIALLY WHEN THIS PERSON LIKE ME, IS GINUINELY NICE!! I DONT UNDERSTAND IT AT ALL.

BUT IT'S SHIT LIKE THIS THAT MAKES ME SAY, IMA STAY THAT BITCH...BECAUSE PEOPLE ARE TRIFLIN AND ALWAYS UP TO NO GOOD.

PSYCHO

I do all things through Christ, who strengthens me
And with him leading the way I know I will not fail
But I follow blindly, stumbling and falling
Harder at certain times than others
Even with him guiding me on my path by his voice
Reoccurring echos distract me from the prime destination

Damn the Devil, he stays busy

Feeling like I fell behind and can never catch back up
Like someone keeps slipping a rug from under me
Making me fall harder each time
Knowing that time is not on my side
Seeing others rise to prosperity
Keeps me in a dark space
Somewhere inescapable and boxed in
Every time I reach for a helping hand
I get slapped in the face
Once misery has you, he attempts to keep you by any means necessary

It is in shambles

And Im without a nail or hammer to fix it

Nor do I have the instruction manual to even guide me

Where to start

Where to go

Where to look

What to feel

All things that come in and out of my mind

But with no answers

My life, what a bitch